I often wondered what motherhood was like before I had my son. I remember being with moms and thinking how tired they looked. It all seemed so daunting. Why would I ever want to put myself through all of that? Well, I guess by the time you reach your 30s (at least for me), you get bitten by the baby bug. That’s right. One day you wake up and there is this need for a baby in your life. Trust me. If it hasn’t happened yet, it will.
The entire time I was pregnant my mood shifted from pure excitement to an agonizing fear. I had no idea how to take care of a baby. Yes, I work with kids. But at 3 o’clock they go home to their own parents. The idea of taking care of a baby 24/7 put my emotions into such a frenzy. This made those 9 months drag on for eternity. Then one day my son decided to make his appearance. And that excitement and fear changed into a state of awe. I can remember just looking down at him and just saying “Wow” over and over again. Plus, I still had no clue how to take care of a baby. Well, that changes very quickly. It is like a switch is turned on and within 24 hours you know how to change a diaper, burp a baby in the right place, change clothes within 60 seconds before the cries come, and countless other tasks.
Would I change anything of this? No way! Do I wish I could sleep in on weekends the way I use to after a leisurely Friday or Saturday night out? Sure. Do I wish I could just leave the house without having to pack the diaper bag, collect toys, put on everyone’s shoes and jackets? Sure. However, I know in a few years I will be able to do all of that again. And I know deep down I will step out into a beautiful Saturday night and turn to find my son waving goodbye. I’ll then see him turn and play with his toys and not even give a glance back. I know that my heart strings will definitely be pulled tightly at that sight. So, I will enjoy these moments now.
To those of you wondering about motherhood, it is probably the hardest job out there. It never stops. You will probably think you can do better and will do everything like a pro when it is your time. I know, I was there too. I thought this would be easy peasy. Do it when you are ready. Don’t let anyone push you. And when you see that little face for the first time, know that your life will definitely change. It will be more hectic and most likely crazy. But this momma wouldn’t change anything for the world. Except to maybe get a little more sleep!
I was reading this article and it made me think of my own experiences. Thought I would pass it along :). In regards to the Star Wars reference and picture: my husband is a HUGE Star Wars fan. That’s how we roll ;).
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